HALLOWEEEN EVE

Its halloween eve and guess what
its the last day of the form 4 syllabus's class !
woots, an irreplacable day in my life
some may not give a damn but not me !
woots
had 4 tuition sessions today
with 1 replacement from yesterday
it was F.U.N !
i didnt feel sleep at all
neither hungry
bm class was damn horny ! but i lovee it
mr suguz's speaking porn all the way
he was treasuring the last class of the season as well
niceeeee
accounts class was awesome
mr sam had guided me along :D
i hope i wont disappoint him in the future
no, now and forever
and later, physics
peeter the hottie
was not losing his fame too
looking great dude
i was eating chips throughout the class :D

me and my friends planned about something for tomorrow
it is a secret :D
hope it will be super duper successful !
GOD BLESS US !

PEACE OUT AND HAPPY HALLOWEEEN PEEPS !!!
enjoy your horrifying day ! :D

OMFG !

god damn it !
i was having my afternoon nap for 4 dreamy hours
UNTIL i skipped my tuition class !
wth, gotta replace it tomorrow and stand a total of 8 hours of class !
in fact i should be chilling out in other place rather than the decent tuition centre
its da last day of the examz of the year man, give me a break
gosh, i hope that the class i skipped today is not the first day of the form 5 syllabus based class
i dont want my first ever day of form 5 accounts class to be a replacement -.-"
it was my second time having a full-day tuition
im gonna bring all my stuffs
food, books, tent, everything
i hope i wont feel tired throughout the day
cuz when it comes to the third hour of every single day of my tuition
i'll start yawning, even started to fall asleep ! literally
nearly bangs my head against the table, right in front of my lord tutor @@"

therefore, god bless me
peace !

*nerdified*

ROCKK OUTT ! SCREW EXAMZ !

gah gah gah gah gah .....
examz has just over !
*grooovyyy*
THOUGH we're still have bc peper to screw tomorrow
just forget it ! i only got a couple of chinese idioms thingy to refesh for
i'll get over with it :D
tonite got mr sam's accounts class :D
is soo looking forward to it !
he's kinda like my GOD
my A1 source
fighting !!!
next year is my BIGG year :D
soo exited :P
please dont think that im nuts
im just being optimistic
for all who's sitting for spm in weeks from now
fighting ! :)

after-examz to-do list ....
lotsa plans to think about
indoors, outdoors :D
will not tell out here as im not sure whether all the plans would work out or not
anyway *crosss fingers*
wish me luck !
will surely post up pics here whenever i got then :D

going to dream . ciaooooo .

i love ma sweet sixteen ;))

i gotta go my own way

I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us
Doesn't seem right these days
Life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try
Somehow the plan
Is always rearranged

It's so hard to say
But I've got to do what's best for me
You'll be okay

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find a place in this world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
And I watch them fall every time
Another color turns to gray
And it's just to hard
To watch it all
Slowly fade away

I'm leaving today
'Cause I gotta do what's best for me
You'll be okay

Zac;
What about us?
What about everything we've been through?

Vanessa;
What about trust?

Zac;
You know I never wanted to hurt you

Vanessa;
What about me?

Zac;
What am I supposed to do?

Vanessa;
I gotta leave but I'll miss you

So, I've got to move on and be who I am

Zac;
Why do you have to go?

Vanessa;
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand

Zac;
I'm trying to understand

Vanessa;
We might find a place in this world someday
But at least for now

Zac;
I want you to stay

Vanessa;
I gotta go my own way .....

PETER CHAO !

Recognise this dude ? thats peter chao . lately addicted to his videos. amused while watching them, i guess im nuts :P though he is funneh. check his videos out on youtube or facebook. peace out madafakas!!! xD

- Chinese guy looking for a girlfriend -

WORTH IT OR NOT

since the very last time .....
..... until now

i wonder .....
..... is it really worth a wait for you ?

i dont know .....
..... dont waste too much of your time if possible

b.o.r.e.d

school school schooooolll .....
non-stop schooling
typical student life rite ?
i want something special ...
perhaps, a lil change ?
just a lil will do ...
waking up at 6am every morning
sickening
as for me as a late night species organism

by the way
having examz now
final year assessment test
its kinda major, though im not done with my preparations
it seems like my days just right be fore the examz is dashing swiftly
unlike the normal times
just slowly creeping through the clock
heh
i aim without determination
crappy ...
see now
common case
geez
forget it !
gotta aim for more in the coming month ;))

by the waayyy
i just cant wait for the coming holidays !
examz are so damn over
and there comes my dreaming products ~
plans plans and plans
seriousy i wanna SHOPPP !!!
long time no shopping
feeling the itch on my hands
oops
plus, some entertainment
to repair my rotten life :P

NOT AGAIN ?!

OMG
i dreamt of you last night
wth ?
i can hardly accept this fact
how can this be happening
how could it be
having wrong thoughts before that youve completely vanished from my memories

BUT no
you didnt
why
is that my true feelings for you ?
just then realised
i am still missing you
youre still occupying the spaces of my heart
and my love for you is eventually greater than your love for me ..........

NO
not at thie time
FOCUS !

the timing is so damn wrong

OH YEAH

WOOOHOOOOO !!!


soo hawwwt babyyy !
i can finally forget you !
muahahahaha !!!
everything
completely
PURE
without a trace in my mind
finally !!!
nothing is impossible after all
thank you, possible
youre the hottest of them all !



:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

get outta my mind

i wanna forget you
get you all erased up
leaving nothing
not even a trace

though
its so hard to do this
naturally
all of the memories
stucked into my mind
cant be released
and let go

am i regret for ending up everything ?
for giving you up
and also for what we've been through
nevertheless
the tests of strengh of our love
i mistrusted it
its just so weak
cant even made it through any obstacles
any attachment of mind
which are all against me

its like 50 - 50
one hand trying to hold you tight
while another trying to push you as fas as possible
sigh . its just so complicated
i might go crazy for keep thinking of it non-stop



you drive me crazy

BETRAYAL

how could you
how could you being so not serious throughout the relationship
how could you do this to me

someone had told me the truth
with the proof attached against it
that you would probably deny
and blame it all on me
i should have known this would happen
i shouldn't have started everything
really damn regret
thank you very much though
to let me know you better
and its sooo over

who do you think i am
so you think im one of those cheap people out there ?!
NO
I AM SO NOT
i think about the future
but do you ?!
i dont think you even cared about our situation now
i am so damn fucking stupid
i should have known you being this kinda person
but now
i finally know you
game over !

you changed instantly when i said that two words
totally changed
i felt like i dont know you any more
it really feels like being strangers among one another
youre so cold
cold blooded
yeah of course
youre a vampire right
evil moron

you dont even urge me to stay
NEVER !
even if ive misunderstood about you
still
with that kinda fucking reaction shown to me
i can know that
i am nothing to you
totally

what the fuck
i am just your toy to play huh ?!
for fun when youre bored
when you got nothing better to do right ?!
i am so serious in everything and youre just making fun outta me
youre too much

i dont think i need a guy like you
i am not as cheap and stupid as you do
and how you think i am
and besides
im not considered having a relationship with you before
honestly i dont really feel like yours
you dont even have the guts to take the initiative to approach me
whenever i am
what the hell?
thats so not right man
but you dont even know your mistakes
treating everything like im pushing all the responsiblities against you
right ?!

i cant be myself
whenever i am with you
i dont feel perfect in your eyes
i feel like im useless
a nerd
a spare
back-up girl to play with

whatever i say now
are just rubbish anyway
no matter how sad
how dead
how injured
how suffering i am
you wouldnt know
WHY ?
cuz you dont even know me
how could you even get to understand me .....

LOVE is complicated
very complicated
if you dont know how to handle everything well
and also, starting everything at the very wrong moment and time
you might ruin everything
and the aftermath is totally aint a joke
nothing but collapse ...
crumbled-up ...
fall apart ...
is the only thing that will occur
dont play play ..........



THE END .

i wanna let everything out
but i just cant do it
i dont know why
>.<"
this is so suffering

THE END .

its all over
can hardly believe that the journey ends here that swiftly


its aint any probs like scandal or what so ever
its about understandings
by the way
they dont really know each other well
its kinda hard to explain out my thoughts


to know whether if your love ones carried out anything secretive ?
of trustworthy or not ?
it wouldn't be a problem if you understands him or her well
you'll eventually can get the exact and accurate answer


BUT no ...
this situation was aint occurred on mine
its soo hard to get involved in your life
your friends ... your life ...
anything you do .....
not even a thing that is in my spaces of interference
its too hard to move on ... too hard ...


its all started too early
thats the mistake i made
i should have know you better
so that in that case i would understand your thoughts better
so as towards your feelings ..........


im really sorry . but it just cant be forced .
i may not cry . but im deadly hurt and injured on the inside .
they are all deeply stucked within my heart .
can anyone help me with this ?

take care . i will miss you .



;'((



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THE TRUTH ?

.

she heard rumours
claimed that he's actually flirting with other girl
seeking for the truth ..........
if this is really true
i guess their love would be so over
aint a joke
shes taking it so seriously
so beware ..........

.

.



AH ! ( the bulb lights up )
i finally found out the solution of all problems .
im too obssessed with you babe .
toooooooo obssessed till i kept on thinking crap stuff outta my mind .
LOL im sorry babe :P



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you are exactly my brand of heroin .
i am your bella. am i?
lol .
i dont wanna squeeze everything within myself .
within the weakest point of my heart . mind . and soul .
i wanna share them all with you .

xoxo♥

*&^$##$$^&##@%((^%&%@#%^$#!~@@$%&*&%

sigh...........................................................................
did i make the right decision ? or the wrong one ?
issshhh. someone must be laughing right now?
or pitying me?
no . i hate being pitied .
fuck man .
can i trust you ?
jealousy seems to occur within me .
i wonder its for a reason or without a reason .

REGRET ! ! ! >(





p/s: [ vacancy : love doctor / listeners wanted ]

hmmm..... uhmmm..... ohhh.....

eeee.
what my problem now ? AGAIN?!
headache . wtf.
should i tell you about it?
will you think that im annoying or whatever?
arghhh i need motivation !
cmon cmon cmon help me out please ..... anyone?

look, if you see this .
please tell me what to do kay ?
my first and retarded time .
handling it myself with a damn retarded mind.
blurness had all covered my sight while walking through this path .
got so damn lost in my way .
i hope its not what we call ... NAIVE ?!
right or wrong ?

many comments from people man.
and im like, mind what they say ?
look, i consider people's ideas or get moved by people's way of looking at things easily .
thats why im so confused .
if only i got a guitar .
i would smash it against anything !
going mad now i guess .
i hope you don't hate me that way ?

erm, i was wondering .
the most important issue .
the main problem im craving a way to solve .
could i change you ?
and, is it right or wrong ?

p/s: i really really really hope i got more time to accompany you .






rawwwrrrrr!!!!!



wanna understand better ?
its just like that ..........

I am a little bit of loneliness a little bit of disregard
Handful of complaints but I can’t help the fact that everyone can see
these scars
I am what I want you to want what I want you to feel
But it's like no matter what I do, I can't convince you, to just believe
this is real
So I let go, watching you, turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I got .....



I am a little bit insecure a little unconfident
Cause you don't understand I do what I can but sometimes I don't make
sense
I am what you never wanna say but I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do I can't convince you for once just to hear
me out
So I let go watching you turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here 'cause you're all that I've got ..........

(linkin park-faint)

M00ncake festival night !

MOONCAKE FESTiVAL NiGHT 2OO9 !
* 中秋晚会 2OO9 *
with the partnership of the chinese societies of SMK BSD 1 & SMK BSD 2

DATE : 25th September 2oo9
VENUE : SMK Bandar Sri Damansara 2
TIME : 5.3o pm - 1o.oo pm
ADMISSION FEE : RM 1o

students from SMK BSD 1 , SMK BSD 2 , SMK Taman Ehsan , SMK Jinjang & SMK Kepong Baru are invited to enjoy our favourite festive season atmosphere !
come on and join in the fun !

Hope to see you there !
不见不散！！！

working time !

yoyoyo ~ !

I gained a really new experience by getting myself a very first ever job in my life :) its a part-time job in McDonald's . woots i love to eat there, thus i decided to work there as well . well, ive been through quite a lot before i got this job. first of all is that i didnt receive the call as everyone did. actually is me and my other 3 friends . aint alone though :P anyway i filled the second form, but still NO calls :( . and guess why? i wrote my hp number wrongly -.-" not used to writing 017 as ive used 012 for quite some time. anyway we all got the job ! yipee yahooii !

Went for 4 - hour training sessions today. 4pm - 8pm. was kinda free until dinner time arrives at 6pm - 7+++pm . first of all i got a noobly mcd cap before starting any duties. later went for the fries section. was okay. nearly terlecur :\ later got changed to the front counter section. walked here and there and everywhere @,@" really buzy. later a staff told me to stand at the drinks machine to just prepare drinks. thank god i no needa walk around along the freaking slippery floor o.0" nearly fell while walking, like ice skating -.-" whoa i tell you what, people who work there are all like living robots who does not even stop or rest a while berofe continueing their work.

About the people there, was okay. two lady staffs were nicee. those foreigners kept staring at me like they never seen a hot girl before :P anyway theres also an old grumpy staff as well, who blames sze yuen for her mistakes -.-" she type wrongly on the receipt yet still blame her for taking the wrong things. swt. those customers were kinda polite, most of them who i served said thank you with smiles on their face :D so glaadd so see that !

our work is finally done ! poor alex wanted to go home eagerly cuz was too exhausted with his heavy duty behind. nuggets and patties, deep-fried all by himself. aiks. sze yuen got knocked by a fat staff for several times while rushing for the serves and got blamed till kinda sicked. sui got terlecur cuz was really in a hurry while preparing those stuff. plus working with a so-not gentleman is aint a good thing at all.howver. im the lucky one after all. hope it goes the same for tomorrow :D

After working, i can finally feel the sufferings of the workers, and, also the money earned by all the hardships we have placed within our jobs. workings aint a funny thing. i must nurture confidents in myself to last till the end of the raya holidays :D wish me luck guys !

thank you very much !
for all the advice and conforts
i was soo touched :')

glad that what i thought were all wrong
things were good
theres no any situations occur before
all the craps i thought were just imaginations
imaginations that came outta my misunderstanding mind on myself
imaginations that scared myself
phewww
you had eventually saved me outta this problem :D

glad that its all over now
i hope that the bonding will not being separated
forever if possible

looking forward for something new :)

♥xoxo .