Conclusion of the week.

Hey im back again here. wont gonna update much except during the weekends. however im not alone with my diary book as my company which existed lately :D which is more intimate, private and confidential. two more weeks to 2nd assessment test, good luck to all. and actually i got nothing much more to say here D: just cant wait to go out after the test and trial. i hope my mum allows to free me for a day or two ! *prays really hard* yooorrr i really really hate losing connection with people, i felt so bored ! seriously bored man. could anyone entertain me ? i need more entertainment~~~ i think im freaking out~~~ any volunteers ???

oh yeah, and people, dont get distracted so easily over things that are not the first to concern about, so as those unnecessary problems. focus on whatever you do and all the best alright :)

ok, so i think thats all for this update. im so so so desperate for my life after all these craps lahhhhh ! ciao people ;)

-pearly-

im always missing you. i want XO :(

Sad

Hmm, ive been kinda tense these days. fuckedup by studies, theyre too many to revise and i have no idea where to start from, therefore i picked up some random notes and studied, slowly, so slow, that i was kinda not catching up, makes no difference compared to not studying, f that. the parents were so disappointed of me of my performances towards academic, theyre now close to losing hope of me already. what a loser i am. and its worse when i cant reach the person i wanted much as a company or to enjoy a hug from. im bored, and tired. and speaking of tired, i think i gotta consume more Proviton (highly recommended multi-vitamin) cuz i often get tired so easily although i enjoyed 3 hours of nap in the afternoon. i wanna last till 3am like i used to do, without books of course. but, i failed, geezzzz.

ive been wondering about the changes i wanna make after high school :P keep thinking of what i wanna do like an extra hobby, i hope i can reach them, after making my list of them when im free. though i guess i shouldnt be thinking of these when im dating books.

so imma conclude this week with a "fun" word. i spent lotsa time crapping, eating and laughing with the buddies :) though honestly, i really wish to spend more time together with him as much as we can, its been a long time since we last chatted for hours. the happiness im enjoying still fails to erase the burden im going through. people asked me not to be emo, am i emo? im not sure also. hmm.

spm, the only thing im hoping to be over. after this i can play without worrying about anything else related to exams, well, at least i could enjoy a longer break than now. then here comes my future plans, and it all depends on spm, nono, is the trials on Sept, for scholarship purpose -.-

Dear readers; i hope you guys wont get annoyed by my boring paragraphs of craps. those are my thoughts, im this bored. accept it or just leave me alone, thanks.

FML99.

I don’t wanna be without you babe

I don’t want a broken heart

Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe

I don’t wanna play that part

I know that I love you

But let me just say

I don’t want to love you in no kind of way

I don’t want a broken heart

And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl

I’m no broken-hearted girl

Beyonce - Broken heared girl (ftw)

-pearly-

The belated syok-sendiri Fifa-fever post.

Oh, do you realise, that i never blog a single thing about Fifa World Cup since the fever had stroked almost everyone of us ? i just forgot to write about it LOL. anyway heres a summary.

first of all, a big congrats to Espanyol !!! anyway i personally support portugal cuz there are lotsa hotties in that team :P and by the way this is the first time ive ever enjoyed watching

football, but i hate falling asleep while waiting the clock to strike 2.30am. cant wait for the next one in brazil, and also the Euro cup, somewhere in two years.

woo, its the time of their life.

the oh-so-famous Fernando Torres, the hearthrob of most of the ladies next door. he's seriously handsome, but everyones struggling hard to own him, so why so suffer ? i shall sit back and admire him without getting crazy like the others :P

i wonder whats on their minds at that particular golden moment.

camwhore in the guy's lockers room, when the queen came outta no where to congrat them xD

when will it be the time of my life ?

-pearly-

Random speech.

Yo, im back again and nothing much happened recently. and since szbo wrote about PLKN stuff in her latest post, imma mention bits of it here, lol.

its a fine tuesday night when i received chin's text asking me to check whether if im selected for national service. the reply i got was only a pending request, cuz its not stated "Tahniah!" or "Maaf!". on the next day...

everyone was talking about it, and lotsa people brought their hp to school that day. i checked and BINGO! i got it ! but im okay with it as mum had planned for my schedule between my future studies and this plkn thingy. i dont think it will affect my life much but 3 months is a lil too long for me perhaps ? and god bless that the toilet facilities are fine enough to use D: who will i miss ? my family, szbo Shien, girlfriends, and pc (not the computer) :( imma reload 99 before leaving kl. im kinda anxious to see the guys in bald heads too :P

my wishes are, to not to get food poisoning or denggi or, to get DARK after the camp ! oh oh and nevertheless, i wanna burn my stomach fats and train for abs ! and i hope that i could be sent to Sabah or Sarawak, i wanna board a plane ! :D

I think ive been enjoying my days lately ? without knowing why, i love to draw smiley faces everywhere in the edges of my work sheets, thats a good indication i suppose, and i hope that it lasts :)

i had a dream, and it was the sweetest one that ive ever dreamt of! but it ended up an epic one BWAHAHA :3

-pearly-

Lady Gaga the Evil ?

check out this two videos ! believe it or not, it scared me till i was afraid to go to bed last night, sweat. but do you think its true ? lady gaga work ships with satan ?!

spot this sentence in the second video, creepy !

"Evil, Save us

The stars above.. above..

we model it on the arts of Lucifer.."

(courtesy of jodi and krystal -.-)

Aftermath

Took my dirty report card last friday, dad didnt show any hard feelings. well by the way hes a calm dude, so i think thats a good thing for him to accept the number 27. i stayed in school later then and awaited for the preparation of the camp to start, wandering around aimlessly.

so the camp's preparation started and everything went smoothly until the students arrived. the games were fun to the kids and i felt relieved after reading their reports of the day, which outcomes the unexpected feedbacks. thanks to qinyi, jiexi and huiyein for their good job in managing the schedules and games throughout the camp, its really really awesome. thanks to the guys: weisheng, jiehau, teckhan, aaron, waichoong and hongpeng for transfering all the damn heavy water balloons in the bigg black buckets from the water source at the field to the middle of the assembly spot, which is very far. the "water war" was fun to me cuz we were throwing water balloons and splashing water to each other like siau ! hawaiian night was cool too, the food served were like the ones that appear in parties :P just that theres this "shapy" girl who literally pissed everyone off with her suck attitude, though she has this big boobs ! qinyi said that she stole the water balloons ROFLMAO!!! so overall everyone was happy, and i love this year's camp compared to last year's, my close friends are with me for this one, unlike last year, i never enjoyed much and im not close to the seniors to get high with them, was just boring. besides, i was glad to help out whenever im needed since i failed come out with ideas for games and stuffs. hope im forgiven if i didnt help much, just wish to contribute something since its my last year here in high school, and this maybe the last camp im attending during high school as well.

backed at home, mum checked my report card and felt disappointed. and now, im grounded for the rest of the year from anything else, no online, no text, no nothing. life is shit now since then. i went to bed after the horrible scoldings and slept til 5.30am the next day without taking my home-alone dinner. i thought it wouldnt matter.

i had bad bad stomach aches and slight fever on and off for four consecutive days, my forehead was burning like hell and just a shake of it will kill me. mum thought that it was denggi but after a check up it turned up as a slight food poisoning. becuz of this, i literally cant eat anything, including food that is cold, ice creams, fruits, milk, curry, nasi lemak and so on. nah, i should say that the wind in my stomach was just reducing my appetite to eat.

and this situation is now stopping me to focus on my studies. i dont want to fail anymore, i started to worry now. one more month to trial, i must give it the best of me. i hope i can recover soon, mum's curry chicken is finishing ! and again, i wanna study -.-

My mum is the one who was worried of me most of the time during my weak condition. she fetch me to see a doctor, massaged me, "gua sha" for me, cooked specially for me, made glucose drink for me, fetch me warm water and prepare 100plus for me too boost up my energy. and for my failure in studies, shes worried for me more than i do for myself, she also felt upset for my suckish achievement. shes the one i love the most in this whole wide world. dad, sis and chin often ask how am i feeling too most of the time. i love you guys too. oh yeah, and nevertheless, szbo, chin and qinyi for making me LMAO which i had never do for a very very long time AHAHAHA! :D

I cant see you as many times as the past months, i cant chat with you like how i love to do before, we cant hang out like we always do anymore, but i still think of you like how i used to, youre always on my mind, especially when i suffer, when i need you the most. the far distance between us wouldnt be my obstacle to love you. ♥♥

i just want you to care, thats all that i wish for.

-pearly-

Panasonic Lumix G Series GF 1

What a cool camera, literally i like it first with its physical appearance, looking small with a bigg lens. how cool is that ;)

ASSORTED COLOURS!

my favourite, white body with black lens :D

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recently ive watched a video, which is a Dell notebook's advertisement from overseas, and i fell in love with that notebook at first sight ?! yeah right, though i shall wait after high school, then i'll save or earn hard to get all the gadgets im craving for. and of course, only after a big survey ! :)

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-pearly-

Relaxing saturday (cuz its school-free)

ALOHA! finally i can reach this god damn page :P the line's freaking lag now and i have to refrsh it for at least 5 reluctant times, damn !

today was erm, so-so. woke up early to meet up with the gang for chinese camp meeting but i was late for 45minutes -.- ended up leaving fish herself to check out the price for the food cater thingy, SORRIE ! we got 3 lappies with us at that time, doing what? FACEBOOK! wahaha, damn fun woi, that siau may yee kept spamming strangers' pages and left people showing their whatthehell-are-you-doing faces :P so, literally we never discuss anything at all. gossiped abit only lol.

backed at home, took a nap and waken up by an anonymous malay caller who ignored me when i said SALAH NOMBOR -.- i was tired so i cut the line without going any further into the talking and set my hp to shut-up mode, then back to sleep. but the siblings were watching a movie online which is very noisy (background sounds). so i woke up and headed to the kitchen.

learnt how to make original spaghetti with mummy ;) its so damn easy ! imma try it myself one day :D

at night, sent cousie to KLIA, lost track around sg buloh -.- ended up being JUST RIGHT IN TIME to check into the airplane :) i will miss you, my dear cousie. there're lotsa airplanes there, all around the airport, and also clouding the night skies :) i wanna board a plane ! i miss that feeling lol.

having add maths tuition class tomorrow, i hope mr chin wont screw up the rest of my tuition sessions with :"pearly, how much did you get for add maths?" -.- fuck my paper marks ! RAWR !

pictures (courtesy of chin) ;

all playing lappy, handphones, wireless services

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stop acting cool, miss tan may yee aka AIRCOND! (:P)

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chin and the horny salker LOL.

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so cute ROFL.

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pearly chua, the purest lady ever!

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hp is deleting his hamburglar picture :(

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jie xi :D

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Oh oh! i realised that hongpeng actually looks like the HAMBURGLAR MCDONALD'S !

check this out ;

looks alike right? just say yes :P

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can we pretend that airplanes in the night skies are like shooting stars?

-pearly-

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22th june . tuesday . sunny

Its father's day and i baked again. to strengthen my skills? well maybe. just to share some pics here :)

the mixture turned very dilute after adding the 4.5 eggs, kinda shocked :O but actually its no big deal -.-

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tiramisu ice cream during my break LOL.

the dining table :D

done ! we ate too fast till i never get to share with anyone of my friends. oopsie ?

School had started, results sucked. still, i think that our batch of students this year is better than last year's, need more hard work though. good luck form 5's 2010 !

pn low shouted and scolded like freaking mad today, worser than the time when we got our first tests' results. horrible man, her faced even turned red. we were all freaked out and the class was so quiet. she sighs everytime she finishes her sentence. im so glad she never give up on us though. however, the ones that i felt sorry for are my parents, cuz theyre the ones that pay for my tuition fees :( still, waiting or add maths papers, hope i will not fail !


-pearly-
when will i end this feelings? its just too suffering :'(

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:D

YOU ARE REAL !
I LOVE IT :D

good night! happy schooling tomorrow people, and for the rest of the months!

-pearly-

Whats going on...

It seems like people are hating me for who i am. i always make mistakes, but its so instant that i just cant help it. i just wanna apologize to anyone whos got blamed by me all the time. just blame it all on me then. besides, whether if im right or wrong, im still the one with the mistakes. just wondering why am i living this life. i already cant get along well with people around me in my current life, what more to say when i step into the adult's stage of life?

however, i wont complain or what so ever, just stand all of it will do. i'll see how long i can take before i collapse, wish me luck.

i always complain becuz i always think that what i get is not enough. so greedy huh, or i didnt get what i should get enough?

buddhists' thoughts are always right, ive learnt many things when i fall. i love buddhism :)


Oh yeah, im gonna bake again for my dad for Father's day, its black and white chocolate cheese cake ! yup i love and love and love cheesecake much, so i hope it'll be a success !


-pearly-

Shopping Day

Yesterday was very fun but tiring :) went to times square with qinyi. went through a long journey before reaching there. kinda exited cuz im not sure what to buy. hehe.

once reached there, we directly browsed through boutiques to boutiques to look out for any favourites, no longer we got our "finalists" to get :D we walked throughout the 3rd, 4th and 5th floor rounds and rounds to compare prices and also to confirm our final decisions of buying the clothes, we also helped each other to choose! i sooo glad that i get to help her in choosing the right ones :D we've been thinking for a long time and had been walking into the same shop to look and think again for many times :P finally ! we both got a dress and she got one more cute bouse.

this is the first time ive been choosing clothes that seriously :P luckily i didnt go home empty handed. literally, i never wear a dress before cuz im ot the type of girl who's used to sweet and lovely dresses, therefore kinda exited to try out something new :D

next round: a red/black/white long purse, flowery dress/blouse, skin product; time to save money yo !

here are some pictures :D

we LOVE our drinks :D

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after shopping, RELAXED !

Qinyi :)

:D

conclusion, its all the :D face all the way, i love my mum for allowing me to go, will be a good good girl for sure ;)

i love you. and i reallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreallyreally dont want to leave you no matter what happens, my dear.

-pearly-

Freaking hot !

Hee, the freaking line's so freaking fine right now x) so, its 5 Minutes To Midnight by Boys Like Girls playing comfortably on my mp3 right now, time to blog!

well, ive realised that the most suitable time for me to blog is always midnight like now, maybe it feels calm and ideas of writing approaches ahead? hmm nevermind, i dont wanna write like some professional authors, just a simple post for comfortable readings will do :) my mood's alright now cuz ive just saw happy people around everywhere on facebook and blogs, with their love ones looking so freaking sweet :P and also, ive read a cute and funny blog from a friend here, it cheers me up much :) FOLLOWED!

so, today was a so-called Earth Day for some areas in my residential area. i forgot about it while sleeping with the fan on till i had a press on the button of the fan *clicks* OHHH WTF! the power's off! -.- woke up then, headed down to the living room and walked around idling, and lied on the couch, thinking whether if i should walk to McD by myself while my mum and sis were still asleep? but we all ended up rushing there to have our lunch although the electricity's back at 3, while some area's still suffering in hotness.

some random stuff happened, i saw my Friendster's friend whom ive known back in few years ago! *blurred* still looking hot ? anyway ive blocked him in fs :X

i think nothing much for today, i hopw i'll be enjoying tomorrow ;) i want brand new clothes in my closet !! ive got a small list in my mind now, like finally :D

ohh well, i guess its time for bed now, lets forget anything sad and doubtful or moody that had happened which often pushes us down, live our lives as enjoyable and relax as possible. life is short, why bother living it with a mind full of worries ? good night! i love you.

"dont wanna kiss, dont wanna touch, just smoke one cigarette and run,"


-pearly-
if only youre as thoughtful as they are, i would be happier.

Chill out, whatcha yelling for ?

Went to sunway pyramid with family to chill out today :) had fun. and the best part is that i found out that there're boutiques with their clothes selling in reasonable prices, i should be saving my money from now on :) anyway i bought a pair of new ear rings today ! gonna start wearing a pair after leaving my ears empty without decorating them for a long long long time ;)

by the way im still not sure about what im gonna buy on tuesday when im going to times square. anyway i think i should get myself a cool jacket, woots i even feel comfortable when it comes to think of it ;) haha, i hope i'll enjoy till the max on that day !
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♥

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syok sendiri

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spotted this in front of a fancy shop, may yee's favourite! too bad i cant get to upload pics onto facebook to tag the girls :(

i hope i can ignore you in able to stop my addiction and obsession towards you

cuz it is too suffering to feel you

-pearly-

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Stupid add math project

Went to fish's house to do add math project yesterday. haih, its just simply wasting my time, i should be at the gym that morning! one fun thing is, that we get to take pics of the products secretively, like a spy 8D and plus, we watched a ghost movie named Stay Alive, thanks to puan with her CD. SYOK!

theyre searching for Pokemon the movie -.-

these two szbos are playing their hp game, childish but really nice to play ;) check out their faces:

:O

D:

fish's idling

we went out to 99 speed mart, grand union and kepong jusco to check out the prices of the products to be compared, had a nice ice cream and lunch, which is Cheese baked spagetti with chicken chop and Strawberry milk shake, woots!

:D

Cuz maybe its true, that i cant live without you;

Because two is better than one ...

-pearly-

Blog as my Twitter ?!

Oopsy, due to the stupiak over-capacity thingy happening in Twitter's website, i gotta replace it with my blog D: thats horrible, im spamming my blog? haih whatever, anyways i got something to share.

erm its about love, this post is so true for me, thumbs up!

shes happy and living a protective love life now, feels great for her. check this out :) thats so sweet.

p/s: that bitch's just too horrible to be true, hate that siau siau attitude! F.O.F ;)

this is soo meaningful! copied from someone's blog. i want YOU to read it ;)

WHOA! FINALLY A GHOST MOVIE NOW! \m/ toodles!


-pearly-

Rick Price - Heaven Knows

This is a sad yet a sweet song, i love it sooo much. its out in the year 1992. ive been wondering whats the song's name since i last heard in MPH when its played. and finally, ive found it when im listening to the old CD, thank god. thanks to Rick for the sweet voice :) its a must-listen!

She's always on my mind
from the time i wake up
'till i close my eyes
she's everywhere i go
she's all i know

Though she's so far away
it's just keeps getting stronger
every day
and even now she's gone
i'm still holding on

So tell me where do i start
'cause it's breaking my heart
don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back some day
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts will find their way
only heaven knows
and all i can do is hope and pray
cause heaven knows

My friends keep telling me
that if you really love her
you've gotta set her free
and if she returns in kind
i'll know she's mine

So tell me where do i start
cause it's breaking my heart
don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back some day
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts will find their way
only heaven knows
and all i can do is hope and pray
cause heaven knows

Why i live in despair
cause wide awake or dreaming
i know she's never there
and all these time i act so brave
i'm shaking inside
why does it hurt me so...

Maybe my love will come back some day
only heaven knows
and maybe our hearts will find their way
only heaven knows
and all i can do is hope and pray
cause heaven knows
heaven knows

Heaven knows.....

now he looks like this, so hot :)

Speechless

Are you really that cool? i just feel like a crazy stalker or a little fan of you like all the time. gahhh, its you. youre the only one, the real only one that can make me go crazy this much. make me drooling like all the time, make me stalk you like some random stalkers, make me think of you like everyday and night, make me feel sick when youre gone without saying good bye, make me feel like a man whos like so damn obsessed with his dream girl, make me extend the range of my desirement of hugging you as wide as the fact that i miss and think of you. i really dislike loving you more than loving myself :(

any solution to overcome this problem? i can hardly focus on my walk in my life and im losing track most of the time. anyone please help me?

p/s: when should i start my studies?


-pearly-

Siau ?

I hate it a lot when your actions are dragging my emotions along as well. how should i overcome this problem ? nearly cant sleep last night, grrrr.MAde

gotta be a long day today, all the best.

p/s: 2 packets of maggi curry today was a big success!


-pearly-

Jason Castro - Lets fall in love again

Lols, i love this song so much ! jason's sweet voice of his vocals and his cute smiles often cheer me up :D check it out !

Let’s pretend baby
That you’ve just met me
And I’ve never seen you before
I’ll tell all my friends
That I think you’re starin’
And you say the same to yours

And oh, we’ll dance around it all night
And then I’ll follow you outside
And try to open up my mouth
And nothing comes out right

And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don’t have to try
It’s so easy
Who needs to pretend ?
But because it’s so funny
Let’s just think about it, honey
Let’s just fall in love again

I’ll call you in three days
Not too soon, not too late
And I’ll ask your roommate if you’re home
You call me on Thursday
And we’ll hang out all day
Then fall asleep on the phone

And oh, I’ll hold your hand when we drive
And we’ll lose track of all the time
And we’ll tell everyone
That we ain’t never felt so alive

And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don’t have to try
It’s so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because it’s so funny
Let’s just think about it, honey
Let’s just fall in love again

We’ll fall disgustingly fast
And we’ll stop hangin’ out with friends
And they’ll be so offended
And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don’t have to try
It’s so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because it’s so funny
Let’s just think about it, honey
Let’s just fall in love again

Let’s just fall in love again
So, let’s just fall in love again ♥

thanks for the smiles, baby :D