the Earth - hour Day

LOL! theres no other title to put so i placed that "earth hour day" on :X anyway today was nice, at least im not bored in the dark, went to alsafa with the buddies and dear, freaking horny and crappy man ! but i seriously loved it, enjoyed laughing with our mouths widely opened :OO hehehe. though im kinda sad when its time to go home D; my ass has stuck to the chair man !

some people are having even more frustrations than me, i should appreciate my life without any other doubts and messed-ups which is even more serious, i must treasure everything :) and to the emos, please cheer up ! i felt really bad as a buddy to see them in this situation and unable to help a thing. well i had advices with me anyway, its Free Of Charge so take it and make full use of it :) lets destroy the world of emoness together alright !!!

youre the only brand of drug that im consuming (loyal huh :P) and you had made the girl wild! you made me think of you every second everyday, having the urge within my heart to hug you, really felt uncomfortable without it, down and also suffers badly. gosh im mad, im really am :P youre also the only one who is able to make me so "exited" whenever im with you, whoa its really my first time a person will make me feel so extreme ! im always yours babe, always yours :DDILOVEYOUDEAR!!!

Btw i spotted a news of Miley Cyrus with her bf Liam Hemsworth on yahoo, had been dating for 10 months already, i guessed they filmed a movie of their love story named "The Last Song" recently ! anyway i found out that miley had got thinner abit as i watched her appearence as a guest aka vocal advicer on the current season of American Idol, whoa she does has the potential to judge the finalists' voices on AI huh? never thought so @@ yup youre right, ive under estimated her, cuz she has this rough voice and rough postures in her music videos -.- plus, one of the contestants sang her song "The Climb" and got knocked out instantly after the nationwide vote, while another one who has the resemblance vocals of hers got kicked off lately as well :O BUT Simon Cowell complimented her profession like OMG ?!

anyway her bf is freaking hot man ! an australian actor :O

gahhh!!!

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the girls behind are envious? LOL

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woots passionate !

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:D

Gagaga, just being random.

my daily schedule had messed up thoroughly by myself :O can anyone tell me what to do ?! but please allow me to stay relax at times. more and more people getting down lately? thats awful man, may everyone stay up in their cheerful mode, would they? :)

school was a crap, literally. ive been talking and talking in every single second, the teachers that really teaches are pn elly, pn norliza and pn faridah. i dont listen to faridah cuz shes soo boastful about her teaching skills, as if shes something to us :P i use the module paper and cover my face and talks to chin as usual during her classes xD

chin had brought lotsa booklets regarding universities in overseas, but we arent reading about the courses provided, but the pictures printed within :PP it was like soo fun to see the hot guys posing inside the booklets :P please mind my freaking nutness :D

nothing much to post anymore, this blog is soo dead xD

try listening to this song, not bad ;) Taio Cruz feat Ludacris - Break Your Heart
i downloaded the same song one after another until i finally got the right version one. phewww !

And by the way, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY ! i'll try to behave well to avoid lecture sessions :P


i miss you like so damn much whenever youre not here with me, even its only for a second.
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miss you

where'd you go ?

i miss you so

it seems like its been forever

that youve been gone ..........

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It shall all end today

It was a fine and cool morning, woke up at 7.06am or earlier, felt like going to the gym but somehow something stupid had stopped me from wanting to move on. so had planned to sleep back again but was prevented by the fact that i cant close my eyes anymore @@ oh shit what shall i do now, ive practically wasted the whole morning idling.

onlined awhile, felt envious of something. i had too much of emotions, why am i so helpless of myself. dont feel like writing any longer any more. remain silent, keeping everything into myself is the best of the best. being emo is just my genre of kind.

i take control of no one's life, including mine.


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Random day

Today was another tuition day again, enjoyed ! it was chilling and comfortable there, but was freezing during the last period, poor zhi juin was becoming a snow woman LOL !

was freaked out by shien's blog @@ anyway really sorry for ffk her last minute, still waiting for the next chance out together though :)

felt like going to the gym tomorrow but, look at the time, 12.20 am already, wont be able to wake up early tomorrow anymore, can i? arghhh getting fatter and fatter already, what to do ?!

i'll give it a bet anyway, will go and jog a while if i can get outta bed in time. if not, just remain a piggie pose on the bed there will do.

*you seem to be my biggest threat, haih. ive thought too much.


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stressed out

Been stress out these days. worn out maybe? i spotted the changes im having here. you'll find me LOLing everywhere on facebook comments i write, or just simply anything i post up there. hmm i dont know, this word just popped outta my head eventually whenever i write. oh and bsides that, ive been saying ILY all the time to him. but i know that, i am appreciating every single time of it as i got the chance to say this to someone i love. i just dont know what am i really upto now, i seemed to start to worry about my studies again. i scare i would not score well, especially in the real spm, im afraid of accounts, i need more practice. ive been wasting too much time these days, ive been thinking of lotsa stuffs lately too. cant i just manage the sections of my brain in folders nicely ? imma freak.

decided to blog now as i may not be online later at night.

watched a video on his page. i think it was okay, ive learnt alot from it, ive known that as time passes, we might find out that the person you think is imperfect to be your other half would turn out to make changes and to suit you better. love is divided into four different stages: codependent, counterdependent, independent and interdependent. i felt that the video was kinda freaky but it was getting better at the end of it.

you had been frightened by the video so instantly, its practically like a vision of the future of love, but who knows it wont happen in our love, its just some investigations found by some people out there. i dont think we'll change if true love exists between us. hmm you shouldnt be worrying much cuz i know its unnecessary, everything will turn out okay. though youve told me its yourself that youre worrying about. hmm this is REALLY freaking me out ZZZ

just think of he positive side, although i dont want you to hurt me :( god bless us, everything will be okay. damn its not the video that is scaring me, its you @@

and now another problem to be stressed of again. i need to dye my hair back to black in no time.

Gotta do my accounts homework now, i know i can do it. (hoping so)
HAIH !!!

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lifeless :(

Today was nothing but another piggie day again cuz i slept at 6am yesterday LOL! so i woke up at 1something today.

but guess what ? i dreamt of him last night, i mean morning. well im still kinda clear about the content, hmm its kinda like, we're going to a tuition centre together, and then we sat on other people's seats (swt) but anyway was together. and this dream woke me up, and then started to miss ** :\ later saw his message, missed ** MORE~ and so later i listened to Cascada - Everytime we touch (sow version) and Taylor swift - Today was a fairytale, and missed ** EVEN MORE. wow this is rare and freaky LOL.

after woke up directly had lunch, cannot text anybody cuz im still outta credits X.X cant even get to online cuz mum never allow it now! OMG this is figgin killing me~ im still thinking of getting the reload card myself as i dont wanna spend dad's money on my hp anymore, cuz i'll eventually feel bad if i spend too much when he does the paying LOL.

so i practically suffered the entire day :( was lembik after lunch, slept AGAIN straight till dinner time at around 7something, thats what a typical pig does ok !

i feel uncomfortable for texting anybody, especially that particular one :( i even felt the anxiety till i suffered from a crazy stomach ache after dinner ! oh my gawd -.-

after the call i felt better and done some chores :D later, mp3 again ! and now i am here online, its 3am and my mum's asleep, me and my sis only get to use the PCs -.- cousin was up with the drama series too x)) ive got companies !

tomorrow will be another lifeless day again i bet :( hope that it will be better though, and i also hope that my mum will allow me to go out on this saturday PLEEEASSSEEE ! i hate to stay at home rotting around, without contacting anyone, i hope i could get more freedom, but somehow being 17 isnt that easy to get outta the study cage -.-

Had some thoughts to share here ~ some couples seemed like having troubles with their relationships, but im seriously grateful that i dont meet these problems at all, really am :D its fun to have a cheerful and relaxed partner than a really sensitive minded one. and mainly for me, is that true love doesnt require anything, its condition-free :D its just all about the internal feeling work-outs. LOL STAY STRONG, LOVERS! :P
ILY♥
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MP3 day ? :P

Today was neutral by the way, did nothing much BUT listened to my mp3! woo love it so much, it full filled my anticipations accumulated for months and now i can bring my hotties' musics around my house x)) what a crazy situation. anyway the highlight of the day was getting nagged by my mum x(

the reason of being nagged was super duper stupid, its about my bc AGAIN! WTF weih, i didnt mean to show my regret for not dropping it earlier and now im worrying of my pending request-confirmation of the dopping-off to the school -.- and i was really really mad when she blame everything all onto me, for not listening and to take her advice seriously. i was like hello, you never discouraged me to drop it anyway, you said it would be okay if i could manage to offer some time for practice, so i just took it as im in a effing stupid dilemma, and now you said it was ALL my fault for not dropping as what you said, well its just a part of what youve said. you said apparently EVERYTHING, this isnt fair at all. ive placed 100% of my thoughts into this decision making process but no one would just understand :'( but the most effing thing is, she compared me to her, WTF! i know im stupid but the subject has just made me went "F*CK!!!!!" #$&*%$*%@!!

tried to cool down in my room, meanwhile i cleaned up my closet, study table, floor and my bed. apparently everywhere in my room was dustless later then. its squeeky clean now ! weeee ~

dating my mp3 again after bath and also when was having dinner ;) never get to blog after that until its 1am.

guess what ?! i never sleep ! i browsed through the lagging fb page and watched Jennifer's Body after that ! boy it was an awesome movie ! meghan fox was horribly and seriously wild and hot :O was really a nice movie ;) lotsa kissing scenes too ! accompanied by my pillow and my Van houten chocolate bar. LOL the movie ended at around 3.45am, close to 4.

and now i am here, caught up blogging about yesterday's post and also today's ! the clock's gonna strike 6 and i gotta go to bed soon before dad and sis find out when they wake up soon ! i guess i shall end here, see yahh guys !!

p/s: i never get to send my good night message to you due to my irreloaded credits D; im sorry dear! iloveyou, good night!!! (i mean morning) :P


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Ice skates !

Woohoo ! today was the day my friend ~ time for some hang outs of the week ! today was a lil awkward as i woke up at 6am in the morning ! why ?! cuz my dad's the only one who's able to give me a ride to mcd in the morning, coincidence with my sis's uni classes today, so i gotta follow their time out at 7am (omg).

but guess what, i woke up sharply at 6 myself, gave a wake up call to someone special and crawled outta bed. boy i was too cool to make it in time, which included bath and hair blowing that would take lotsa time for me to be done with, except for having lunch at home, so i gotta spend a lil at mcd to fill my stomach then.

ate breakfast with him till 9am and rushed to the taxi stop when the taxi drivers refused to give u a ride due to the serious traffic jam out there, though, what a relief to see a bus which leading towards our destination, an old bus but the fair was really cheap LOL.

met up with the guys, yup theyre all guys as the girls had became pilots for the day -.- so am i fully protected ? :P we went from stations to stations, finally we reached there at around 10 something.

walked around solo, was looking for some things to buy but nah, the price tags were torturing me around so yeah, left for lunch at 12, and later then, ICE RINK here i come !

its been years since i had my last step on the slippery ice with the skates, and this time im skating with them: puikia, khai loong, jun hong, hong peng, zhen ye, jiann hau and lok. and oh boy it was crowded ! plus i bumped into numbers of familiar faces ;) was cool, and i remembered my so-called techniques of skating so yeah, was alright, fell 3 times with an awesome one on my ass LOL but what i was thinking is, no fall, no fun xD we skate around till 5 something and left as im having pain on my ankles. continued to walk around ~ met hui yee and gang outta rink :)

walked and waked aimlessly with puikia, junhong, khai loong and hong peng ~ later somehow we came out n idea of watching a movie. i wanna watch Green Zone which featured Matt Damon (the hottie) but the rest refused to watch so decided to go for Alice in wonderland!

ate dinner at Sakae, my first time~ was a cool place to hang out :D and its also my first time eating sushi with wasabi officially :O ahahah.

flew to tgv once finished eating. the movie was cool but somehow im still not eally into british speakings of the characters, plus the story line was completely different as the animated version so its not really fantasy, it would be extra awesome if it imitates the animated version like 95% :D

back by another taxi directly to bsd, crapped alot on the way back home as everyone came out with their very own theory of the present humanity @@ LOL. after getting outta the taxi and was about to call my mum i just found out that my hp was gone! i was like "WTF?!" and kept digging around my bag like mad. he then tried to call my hp and the taxi driver answered his calls and decided to make a turn back to hand the hp to me. OMG thats a kind hearted taxi driver man ! it was another first time, for losing my hp -.- what a total clumsy girl. omg youre my hero babe !! :D otherwise i will earn tons of lectures from ma mum AGAIN ! however im really fortunate to get it back as i turned on the sound of my hp right after the movie ended, it would be hopeless if its in total silent mode @@

went back home, settled with my mp3 stuff and went to bed. still in a lil fright mode at that time. today was super enjoyable with the gang, adventurous yet "trilling" at the end of the trip, man you guys are just awesome, especially you :D xoxo

woo how awesomely hot would it be if i couldactually skate like Kim Yu Na LOL! imma total dreamer ;))

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It remained a history in our minds :(

Today was bored before tuition :( but after tuition, i went out, so was happy ! :D LOL ~

FINALLY !!! i got my mp3 LMAO xD had been in a dilemma but the discount had saved me ! with the price of Rm83, i wont get to sleep well tonight if i dont buy it, so i did it ! :P 2GB Philips is just enough, the look's not really attractive but yeah, was still hot for me :D

and later i got myself a red tank top ! woohoo ! its been on my shopping list for a very very long time! so yesh was soo high~ :P

Back at home, makan, and then online. i was busy extracting songs outta my cacat Kingston thumbdrive into my desktop to arrange them for their next trip into my mp3, so yeah opened out the dusty songs and photos' files :D

i saw lotsa old memories outta there, some of the japanese and korean songs made me think of the days of me being a kpop and jap/korean drama freak, sounds tracks were all there as well, remember the main theme song "Peach" from Hana Kimi? the drama which full of hotties !!! xD i also remembered myself being so busy loading one episode after one to catch every single episode of them before ppstream exists in my world :P its soo troublesome yet without and complains, i enjoyed my joyful times. I miss those happy memories :'D

later, i flipped through the photo albums one by one, i saw all the enjoyable times with my buddies ;) and nevertheless, YOU occupied most of the photos in the album. yeah of course, we used to be really really best friends, i really loved being together with you, but i dont know why, somehow things had changed, you had changed. we used to chat, laugh, crap, joke, get crazy together, but now, we remain strangers to each other. i dont think you'll even own any of these copy of pics either, cuz to you, i just remain a HISTORY, a chapter which was meant to be forgotten for good. i really really missed our friendship much, but i know, its impossible for us to become partners again ;'( i shall just wish you luck in your life, i wont hate you for the attitude you performed last time anymore, being strangers is somehow better than being enemies, right ? weirdos are just meant to be weirdos ...

finally ive finished managing the files, and i was blogging about my thoughts here. am going to sleep, super sure that im gonna enjoy till the max tomorrow, cuz im with him :)


iloveyou,
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Neutral

Today we got some sukan tara in school today, went to run and jump a lil, dont really wanna do these though cuz i knew a wont gain much marks :/ sports noobie . total boredom in school D;

the skating plan was a mess LOL but finally its settled after a discussion with the buddies .

honestly i seriously hate having 3 tuitions, i cant really take it. after back from school its already 2pm and after lunch its 2.30pm, after bath (my bath is 1hour long btw) its already 3.30pm and i got no time for nap, dammit i gotta focus and not to feel tired during tuition, such a failure man -.- After back at home its already 10pm, though, i know my tuition schedule is the nothing compared to my friends who literally took tuitions of ALL subjects in DIFFERENT places EVERYDAY :O pro ! i must not complain much about mine anymore, tahan!

Im still waiting for the confirmation from the teacher of my subject drop-off, really praying hard for it to success !! otherwise i gotta take bc AGAIN, anti-bc ! :X (sorry bc pros)

FINALLY !! i get to go for an exercise tomorrow, maybe solo :( rawr its ok just get use to it will do. and what time is it now? 1.50am @@ if i cant take my tiredness i shall fall back to my pillow and continue to dream on ~


Ive realised, that youve been occupying the spaces in my heart, mind, and soul day by day...
whatever you feel, i may get your feelings too (as usual :P)
i just feel that we are one now
its good that its only your tiredness youre suffering from
cuz im afraid that its my unwell concern for you, just in case
its hard to pull my emotions to back to their actual tracks when they follows yours
is it some kind of magic or what ?
anyway its cool to see that your alright
remember to stay happy always
it really adorable to see your smile everyday :D
and not the tense look :{
LOL, ILY .
PC♥

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now im thinking two, is better than one ~

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studies are smashing my brain into pieces

Today was the results day. ex-seniors came to take their results slips (duh), but its aint easy as it seems. from the informations obtained, i guess no one got straight A+ for this spm (not sure) isnt it? and unexpected grades existed as well. gosh i can see how hard it is to score now as the education department had changed their system to a higher standard ? hmm i am so pressured.

Talking about the total subjects im taking for this year, its suppose to be 10 but it turned up to be 11 cuz im interested in taking accounts due to the awesome teachings and understandings by my tutor. but the biggest prob is, should i drop bc instead ?!

i may get A for bc in UPSR :X but i only got B in PMR :( what more to say for SPM? ive tried my very best but i just couldnt get to dig out some time for chinese novels and books' readings, well of course to kill my awful grammar mistakes. ive been thinking about dropping or taking for a very very very very very long time, until i just known that some of my awesomely smart ex-seniors got B in their bc :( aww gawwsh i got the tension now !!!

OK ! i got a news to announce here :P imma DROP MY BC !!! and yes its the last decision ive made for myself, imma focus on 10 and score my best, bc is bugging me like helll x(

okay so now, talking about the field im going into after ending my high school ? of course im aiming for the best, but i know i can hardly control myself, i wont be able to make it that far. though its still hard to say, i may prove something unusual :O just maybe, seriously cant wait for my own good news :( but can i really make it? well its all starting from the effort im loading in now.

people seldom trust me when i promised that i can make it, but its really aint easy to change myself to a seriously disciplined type, to be frankly is NO ONE will trust me for what i promised. i know, its sad, but will miracles fall upon me ? i never care what people think about me, imma suffer myself for out what im aiming for, nop matter how high are my expectations or goals, i will always be the only one who give myself the strength, confidence and trust. i dont live in people's shoes, ive got the confident to prove them wrong, but i gotta really tie myself up !

wow, poor me, being the only one who trusts myself :P anyway im always waiting for the good news from time to time, i wont get anymore chance when the typical SPM arises before my eyes !!!!!

" And i dont want the world to see me, cuz i dont think that they'd understand,
when everythings made to be broken, i just want you to know who i am. " - Iris, goo goo dolls



Aww yeah, before i end my post, i just thought of something idiot happened to me this morning in school. we were ordered by pn low to proceed to the library as our bio period is idle -.- and pn low were in an awful bad mood, fyi shes actually marking my class's chem paper (aww shit @#&%$*@!)

she warned that people who talked gotta become some so-called "Mata" which we can only sit when we caught others that talked -.- . just then when i was about to finish up my homeworks i found out that my pencil case has disappeared, so ive done some stupid mouth and hand signals with yan rou asking her is she sees it.

suddenly !! pn low stood up and said "you two girls stand up, caught people who talks before you can sit down, " wtf ?! hello i never let out a sound k -.- so ive done my work by standing, i never catch others, so kind~ haih poor me, again ! and the worst part is, we stood up in front of the form 2M juniors WTF!!! so humiliating man ZZZ !!!

omg pn low's been a monster when she marks our chem's paper, horrifying sial ! im soo dead, shit i should wear a mask during chem period X.X


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OLA !!

Wakakakakaka ..... finally im alive !! been liveless during exams period, add maths and chemistry are killing me ! fml man :X omg i wont dare to face pn low in the future @@

ive been sleeping at 1am these days, stayed up till 3am the day before add maths, bio and chem, noob sial -.- i'll make it earlier next time. today i had my afternoon nap from 3pm till 7pm, pro !

so theres nothing much about school, seems like everyone has became smarter :P i gotta catch up with the rest as well. teehee~ so its after exams, theyre some plans i gotta work out during the hols :D ;

1. hang outing with buddies
2. shopping with szbo !
3. hang out with ****** :P
4. GYM!!!
5. hula hooop !!!
6. shorts !!!

gagagagaga, been popping outta my mind during exams, i do love to think about enjoyment while dating books huh ?!

its crazy that ive been having a huge appetide these days D; is it exams or growth or my pathway of being a fat ass ?! :O im coming treadmillllllll.....

anyway there's a pbsm camp and im not going for it cuz i had not much time to spend next week, so awaits the next time :P

someone has been looking down upon himself, no worries, youll get over with this prob eventually, always support you !!!

btw tomorrow is the SPM results day !!! whoa so exited to hear about the seniors' news xD oh so does this means theyre storming bsd 1 tomorrow? haha looking forward for all the good news ;)) fighting !!

its damn stupid that i gotta finish up my homeworks if not pn chan will deduct my bc papers' marks, NOOOOO !

k shall stop here for tonight, will blog during hols :P take cares all !


iloveyou;
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