BETRAYAL

how could you
how could you being so not serious throughout the relationship
how could you do this to me

someone had told me the truth
with the proof attached against it
that you would probably deny
and blame it all on me
i should have known this would happen
i shouldn't have started everything
really damn regret
thank you very much though
to let me know you better
and its sooo over

who do you think i am
so you think im one of those cheap people out there ?!
NO
I AM SO NOT
i think about the future
but do you ?!
i dont think you even cared about our situation now
i am so damn fucking stupid
i should have known you being this kinda person
but now
i finally know you
game over !

you changed instantly when i said that two words
totally changed
i felt like i dont know you any more
it really feels like being strangers among one another
youre so cold
cold blooded
yeah of course
youre a vampire right
evil moron

you dont even urge me to stay
NEVER !
even if ive misunderstood about you
still
with that kinda fucking reaction shown to me
i can know that
i am nothing to you
totally

what the fuck
i am just your toy to play huh ?!
for fun when youre bored
when you got nothing better to do right ?!
i am so serious in everything and youre just making fun outta me
youre too much

i dont think i need a guy like you
i am not as cheap and stupid as you do
and how you think i am
and besides
im not considered having a relationship with you before
honestly i dont really feel like yours
you dont even have the guts to take the initiative to approach me
whenever i am
what the hell?
thats so not right man
but you dont even know your mistakes
treating everything like im pushing all the responsiblities against you
right ?!

i cant be myself
whenever i am with you
i dont feel perfect in your eyes
i feel like im useless
a nerd
a spare
back-up girl to play with

whatever i say now
are just rubbish anyway
no matter how sad
how dead
how injured
how suffering i am
you wouldnt know
WHY ?
cuz you dont even know me
how could you even get to understand me .....

LOVE is complicated
very complicated
if you dont know how to handle everything well
and also, starting everything at the very wrong moment and time
you might ruin everything
and the aftermath is totally aint a joke
nothing but collapse ...
crumbled-up ...
fall apart ...
is the only thing that will occur
dont play play ..........



THE END .

i wanna let everything out
but i just cant do it
i dont know why
>.<"
this is so suffering