Conclusion of the week.

Hey im back again here. wont gonna update much except during the weekends. however im not alone with my diary book as my company which existed lately :D which is more intimate, private and confidential. two more weeks to 2nd assessment test, good luck to all. and actually i got nothing much more to say here D: just cant wait to go out after the test and trial. i hope my mum allows to free me for a day or two ! *prays really hard* yooorrr i really really hate losing connection with people, i felt so bored ! seriously bored man. could anyone entertain me ? i need more entertainment~~~ i think im freaking out~~~ any volunteers ???

oh yeah, and people, dont get distracted so easily over things that are not the first to concern about, so as those unnecessary problems. focus on whatever you do and all the best alright :)

ok, so i think thats all for this update. im so so so desperate for my life after all these craps lahhhhh ! ciao people ;)

-pearly-

im always missing you. i want XO :(

Sad

Hmm, ive been kinda tense these days. fuckedup by studies, theyre too many to revise and i have no idea where to start from, therefore i picked up some random notes and studied, slowly, so slow, that i was kinda not catching up, makes no difference compared to not studying, f that. the parents were so disappointed of me of my performances towards academic, theyre now close to losing hope of me already. what a loser i am. and its worse when i cant reach the person i wanted much as a company or to enjoy a hug from. im bored, and tired. and speaking of tired, i think i gotta consume more Proviton (highly recommended multi-vitamin) cuz i often get tired so easily although i enjoyed 3 hours of nap in the afternoon. i wanna last till 3am like i used to do, without books of course. but, i failed, geezzzz.

ive been wondering about the changes i wanna make after high school :P keep thinking of what i wanna do like an extra hobby, i hope i can reach them, after making my list of them when im free. though i guess i shouldnt be thinking of these when im dating books.

so imma conclude this week with a "fun" word. i spent lotsa time crapping, eating and laughing with the buddies :) though honestly, i really wish to spend more time together with him as much as we can, its been a long time since we last chatted for hours. the happiness im enjoying still fails to erase the burden im going through. people asked me not to be emo, am i emo? im not sure also. hmm.

spm, the only thing im hoping to be over. after this i can play without worrying about anything else related to exams, well, at least i could enjoy a longer break than now. then here comes my future plans, and it all depends on spm, nono, is the trials on Sept, for scholarship purpose -.-

Dear readers; i hope you guys wont get annoyed by my boring paragraphs of craps. those are my thoughts, im this bored. accept it or just leave me alone, thanks.

FML99.

I don’t wanna be without you babe

I don’t want a broken heart

Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe

I don’t wanna play that part

I know that I love you

But let me just say

I don’t want to love you in no kind of way

I don’t want a broken heart

And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl

I’m no broken-hearted girl

Beyonce - Broken heared girl (ftw)

-pearly-

The belated syok-sendiri Fifa-fever post.

Oh, do you realise, that i never blog a single thing about Fifa World Cup since the fever had stroked almost everyone of us ? i just forgot to write about it LOL. anyway heres a summary.

first of all, a big congrats to Espanyol !!! anyway i personally support portugal cuz there are lotsa hotties in that team :P and by the way this is the first time ive ever enjoyed watching

football, but i hate falling asleep while waiting the clock to strike 2.30am. cant wait for the next one in brazil, and also the Euro cup, somewhere in two years.

woo, its the time of their life.

the oh-so-famous Fernando Torres, the hearthrob of most of the ladies next door. he's seriously handsome, but everyones struggling hard to own him, so why so suffer ? i shall sit back and admire him without getting crazy like the others :P

i wonder whats on their minds at that particular golden moment.

camwhore in the guy's lockers room, when the queen came outta no where to congrat them xD

when will it be the time of my life ?

-pearly-

Random speech.

Yo, im back again and nothing much happened recently. and since szbo wrote about PLKN stuff in her latest post, imma mention bits of it here, lol.

its a fine tuesday night when i received chin's text asking me to check whether if im selected for national service. the reply i got was only a pending request, cuz its not stated "Tahniah!" or "Maaf!". on the next day...

everyone was talking about it, and lotsa people brought their hp to school that day. i checked and BINGO! i got it ! but im okay with it as mum had planned for my schedule between my future studies and this plkn thingy. i dont think it will affect my life much but 3 months is a lil too long for me perhaps ? and god bless that the toilet facilities are fine enough to use D: who will i miss ? my family, szbo Shien, girlfriends, and pc (not the computer) :( imma reload 99 before leaving kl. im kinda anxious to see the guys in bald heads too :P

my wishes are, to not to get food poisoning or denggi or, to get DARK after the camp ! oh oh and nevertheless, i wanna burn my stomach fats and train for abs ! and i hope that i could be sent to Sabah or Sarawak, i wanna board a plane ! :D

I think ive been enjoying my days lately ? without knowing why, i love to draw smiley faces everywhere in the edges of my work sheets, thats a good indication i suppose, and i hope that it lasts :)

i had a dream, and it was the sweetest one that ive ever dreamt of! but it ended up an epic one BWAHAHA :3

-pearly-

Lady Gaga the Evil ?

check out this two videos ! believe it or not, it scared me till i was afraid to go to bed last night, sweat. but do you think its true ? lady gaga work ships with satan ?!

spot this sentence in the second video, creepy !

"Evil, Save us

The stars above.. above..

we model it on the arts of Lucifer.."

(courtesy of jodi and krystal -.-)

Aftermath

Took my dirty report card last friday, dad didnt show any hard feelings. well by the way hes a calm dude, so i think thats a good thing for him to accept the number 27. i stayed in school later then and awaited for the preparation of the camp to start, wandering around aimlessly.

so the camp's preparation started and everything went smoothly until the students arrived. the games were fun to the kids and i felt relieved after reading their reports of the day, which outcomes the unexpected feedbacks. thanks to qinyi, jiexi and huiyein for their good job in managing the schedules and games throughout the camp, its really really awesome. thanks to the guys: weisheng, jiehau, teckhan, aaron, waichoong and hongpeng for transfering all the damn heavy water balloons in the bigg black buckets from the water source at the field to the middle of the assembly spot, which is very far. the "water war" was fun to me cuz we were throwing water balloons and splashing water to each other like siau ! hawaiian night was cool too, the food served were like the ones that appear in parties :P just that theres this "shapy" girl who literally pissed everyone off with her suck attitude, though she has this big boobs ! qinyi said that she stole the water balloons ROFLMAO!!! so overall everyone was happy, and i love this year's camp compared to last year's, my close friends are with me for this one, unlike last year, i never enjoyed much and im not close to the seniors to get high with them, was just boring. besides, i was glad to help out whenever im needed since i failed come out with ideas for games and stuffs. hope im forgiven if i didnt help much, just wish to contribute something since its my last year here in high school, and this maybe the last camp im attending during high school as well.

backed at home, mum checked my report card and felt disappointed. and now, im grounded for the rest of the year from anything else, no online, no text, no nothing. life is shit now since then. i went to bed after the horrible scoldings and slept til 5.30am the next day without taking my home-alone dinner. i thought it wouldnt matter.

i had bad bad stomach aches and slight fever on and off for four consecutive days, my forehead was burning like hell and just a shake of it will kill me. mum thought that it was denggi but after a check up it turned up as a slight food poisoning. becuz of this, i literally cant eat anything, including food that is cold, ice creams, fruits, milk, curry, nasi lemak and so on. nah, i should say that the wind in my stomach was just reducing my appetite to eat.

and this situation is now stopping me to focus on my studies. i dont want to fail anymore, i started to worry now. one more month to trial, i must give it the best of me. i hope i can recover soon, mum's curry chicken is finishing ! and again, i wanna study -.-

My mum is the one who was worried of me most of the time during my weak condition. she fetch me to see a doctor, massaged me, "gua sha" for me, cooked specially for me, made glucose drink for me, fetch me warm water and prepare 100plus for me too boost up my energy. and for my failure in studies, shes worried for me more than i do for myself, she also felt upset for my suckish achievement. shes the one i love the most in this whole wide world. dad, sis and chin often ask how am i feeling too most of the time. i love you guys too. oh yeah, and nevertheless, szbo, chin and qinyi for making me LMAO which i had never do for a very very long time AHAHAHA! :D

I cant see you as many times as the past months, i cant chat with you like how i love to do before, we cant hang out like we always do anymore, but i still think of you like how i used to, youre always on my mind, especially when i suffer, when i need you the most. the far distance between us wouldnt be my obstacle to love you. ♥♥

i just want you to care, thats all that i wish for.

-pearly-