Ugly & Belated; Happy Birthday, Margaret!

Okay...

this is the time

the time for some frights,

insults,

and whatever smelly outta your mouth.

Becuz i decided to publish a post which i coincidentally found it in my draft inbox in blogger!

please ah, let me warn you first. dont go "wtf so ugly why publish this!" or "eeeee pearly looks so nerdy and stupid :O"

becuz those were the hurting truths LOL just kidding.

so this was Margaret's 15th birthday party threw in her house after PMR. yeah it was a blast! so memorable eh :) okay you can now enjoy the "COOL" pictures;

i like her bro, very cute! the one with those peace signs poking into his nose LOL.

Margaret's cousie .......... & i.

this is nice :D

so is this :D

nehnehnipupu i got the swing and you dont!

the best k-pop vocals i can ever listen from, at least it is to me. though their group didnt last forever after all :(

salad.

LAWL.

OMG CHILDISHNYE :\

wow hou yeng ah!

always camwhore saje -_____-

:P

THIS IS NICE

HOU HOR NGOI AH LOLWTF.

YAY, a tree.

chabo and i LOL.

dont look at their oddly looking face expressions, the food was nice :)

Pn tong stormed the venue too that night.

WAH.

look at qinyi. HAHA.

Thats it! i guess it enough to strain your eye sight for today LOL.

i will be back again!

-pearly-

Itchy Hands With A Notice To You.

Gonna produce a lil post on what's hot on my March on the next post.

thank you good night take care readers :D

-pearly-

Baby you know that, maybe its time for Miracles.

OMG *faints*

No offense people, i write what i think about on my mind. if you think what i write doesnt make any sense at all and just a piece of crap, well i guess its time to say good bye!

Since the japan earthquake plus tsunami disaster stroke, i believe many started to worry about the upcoming "end of the world" doomsday event that is about to happen next year, 2012, on the date of December 21 (nice date God chose, its fish's birthday). well maybe im the only one who is afraid? im seriously scared OH NOO!

I dont wanna die in such a tiny young age! theres still a lot of things waiting for me to accomplish, to achieve. i havent even graduate from college at that time. i havent travel overseas before! im still young and theres many many things i wanna try-out, to enjoy. oh please.

and now, i finally understood, the reason of not being sad and whine over stupid little things in life, but to appreciate every single moment being alive in this world. being alive is the greatest gift we can ever get, cant be compared to plain materials people being so desperate to get. dont be depressed over a pair of shoes that is sold out, when victims of the disasters were struggling so hard for every chances to stay alive. appreciate life! dont get fussy over silly problems. just ignore those shits and smile like theres no tomorrow.

I wondered. if i died, where will my soul be heading to? hell? wandering around? i dont wanna lose me, myself. i wanna do what i do everyday, with all the people i love the most. just that very second, i started to love myself more than any other things. after thinking of these shits, i, then started to think about everything as a pessimist. and when i buy things, i would go: ohmygod the world is ending i'll only get to use this for like, a year plus?! kinda stupid eh?

Until just now i stumbled across this Wikipedia page. and i got these info. (ALL COPY & PASTED HERE) and look what i found. this whole thing is not confirmed yet?! (jumps on the inside of me) i wont bother to read sources from other websites cuz they may be craps written by random people, would they? lol who cares! i guess WE HAVE HOPE after all :')

the bold words resembles our hopes.

The 2012 phenomenon comprises a range of eschatological beliefs that cataclysmic or transformative events will occur on December 21, 2012 which is said to be the end-date of a 5,125-year-long cycle in the Mayan Long Count calendar. Various astronomical alignments and numerological formulae related to this date have been proposed.

A New Age interpretation of this transition posits that during this time Earth and its inhabitants may undergo a positive physical or spiritual transformation, and that 2012 may mark the beginning of a new era. Others suggest that the 2012 date marks the end of the world or a similar catastrophe. Scenarios posited for the end of the world include the Earth's collision with a passing planet (often referred to as "Nibru") or black hole, or the arrival of the next solar maximum.

Scholars from various disciplines have dismissed the idea of catastrophe in 2012. Mainstream Mayanist scholars state that predictions of impending doom are not found in any of the existing classic Maya accounts, and that the idea that the Long Count calendar "ends" in 2012 misrepresents Maya history. The modern Maya do not consider the date significant, and the classical sources on the subject are scarce and contradictory, suggesting that there was little if any universal agreement among them about what, if anything, the date might mean.

Additionally, astronomers and other scientists have rejected the apocalyptic forecasts as pseudoscience, stating that the anticipated events are contradicted by simple astronomical observations.NASA has compared fears about 2012 with those about the approaching millennium in the late 1990s, suggesting that an adequate analysis should preclude fears of disaster. None of the proposed alignments or formulas have been accepted by mainstream scholarship.

Pray hard people! and may Buddha/any other spiritual leaders lead you to the right path in the afterlife.

PS: SPM results out TOMORROW omg i cant wait! these butterflies in me are pretty much killers!

and hang out with my buddies after that WOOHOOO! good of bad results, i'll just accept them with an open heart LOL.

-pearly-

Never-ending obsession.

fuckmylife

Long time no crap! ANYBODY MISSING ME? LOL. just to update myself a lil about my recent life.

for your information ive quit my job earlier on March 4th due to certain silly reasons but its okay. i kinda miss my job, the kind colleagues (but not the bitchy and annoying ones) and the days which i busy walking around from the curve to ikea to ikano then back to ikea and then to the curve again during my break time, instead of sticking my ass onto the chair after long hours of standing lol. anyway that was fun, but it no longer happens.

so basically i was just sticking around at home, besides spending money outside with the kawans. its fun but i do frown a little bit when thinking that theres no incomes anymore instead of... OUTcomes? and to be honest, im kinda a greedy person.

You know what? im really unhappy. i can tear up whenever the emotions rushing outta my body. people telling me to be happy, cuz life is too short to be sad. though its not as easy as i can take it off my mind whenever i want to. no matter whenever i wake up, or closing my eyes to sleep, i think about it. and yeah, im always waiting. and i wont put any efforts upon it anymore. im tired, and i need a break.

looking forward to college life. looking forward to the public-transport-taking moments thats about to happen. i cant wait to face the world, those mean people, those dramas. im ready for all these. i cant wait for those books/assignments/homeworks pilling up right in front of me to handle, and of course, the new people. obstacles and challenges? bring it on! im tougher than how you think okay :P what for bercakap kosong ni?

spm results releasing on the 23rd?! lol its not that nerve-cracking to me anymore. and i never pray at all since the day i said i would (i suck so bad) so wish me luck people!

i dont hope for anything. i just wanna be happy, thats all i need.

-pearly-

Beautiful Thought by Lord Buddha; Let It Be.

Found this while checking my mails, and i found it cool lol. enjoy reading!

Once Buddha was travelling with a few of his followers. While they were passing a lake, Buddha told one of his disciples, "I am thirsty. Do get me some water from the lake." The disciple walked up to the lake. At that moment, a bullock cart started crossing through the lake. As a result, the water became very muddy and turbid. The disciple thought, "How can I give this muddy water to Buddha to drink?" So he came back and told Buddha, "The water in there is very muddy. I don't think it is fit to drink." After about half an hour, again Buddha asked the same disciple to go back to the lake. The disciple went back, and found that the water was still muddy. He returned and informed Buddha about the same. After sometime, again Buddha asked the same disciple to go back. This time, the disciple found the mud had settled down, and the water was clean and clear. So he collected some water in a pot and brought it to Buddha. Buddha looked at the water, and then he looked up at the disciple and said," See what you did to make the water clean. You let it be, and the mud settled down on its own ── and you have clear water. Your mind is like that too ! When it is disturbed, just let it be. Give it a little time. It will settle down on its own. You don't have to put in any effort to calm it down. It will happen. It is effortless." Having 'Peace of Mind' is not a strenuous job; it is an effortless process.

TREAT EVERYONE WITH POLITENESS
EVEN THOSE WHO ARE RUDE TO YOU
NOT BECAUSE THEY ARE NOT NICE
BUT BECAUSE YOU ARE NICE.

-pearly-

:‘(

真不明白 一直以来

是不是 只有自己

独自在自讨苦吃

尽心尽力地付出

但得到的

却是那么的一点点

唉

到底问题在哪里呢?

好累累累累累啊

可能

我该停顿了

什么都不做

什么都不管

什么都别说

才是最佳的选择。。。

但最惨的是

我做不到

哇的法?

啊!!!!!

我会尽量逼自己去做

我什么都肯忍受

因为日子多伤心也得过

我知道

无论我如何解释

如何诉说

都只会被当成在寄托麻烦给他人

所以我知道

到最后

无论如何

还是只有我自己

独自

一一度过

这一切 都不是做作

你 别想太多

对于与我一样有着相似问题的读者

你 一定要坚强！

-pearly-

Marching to March.

Fuckfark this word

im a typical girl aint i?

told you im conservative 8|

February had just ended! a mentally-eventful month i suppose. my brain isnt resting every night when i sleep. i always think a lot during the day, dream of things at night in my sleep. oh and i remember, i dreamt of something sweet that wouldnt even happen in real i suppose? but no matter how sweet a dream is, i still hate it. cuz it disturbs my sleep! so yeah i hate sweet dreams (N) i just wanna sleep with my mind fully at rest. but i guess i wouldnt. please do not think that im weird about this k. damn it why am i talking about SLEEPING? -,-

SALARY will be out on march 1st OMG im so so happy! just by thinking about getting to buy things would even excites me real easily. by the way i got many many things to buy, hope i'll be able to control myself, to spend reasonably :D

#marchwish

1. get to buy whatever i can get with my salary

2. get daddy's cool polo tee for his bday

3. new phone, like finally!

4. a date with him

5. MORE ACES for SPM!!!

6. work goes well, and also towards the relationship with the bitchy colleagues

7. more smiles

8. get to meet up with my friends more often

9. no more emo emo emo emo emo!

10. be mature, be open minded, grow up

im still waiting for my life to shine one day. the life which without sadness. my expectations isnt high. becuz my life cuz sucks than the average ones.

-pearly-