i made my decision, and i bet you wont like this. i wonder whats so obsessive about myself, dragging you deadly towards my direction. its not that after that love i had phobia, but youre still not the right one. its not that im fussy or having high expectations, but i prefer finding the other half that will last simply forever. in order to have an ever lasting love, i prefer not to start anything when i should be focusing on my studies, like a typical student.
being love in secondary school is normally aint strong to accept any strong attachments or temptations to other people you will meet in life, to be simple, will not last long. people may not be mature enough to think properly. i still need lotsa time to grow up, to be involved in love issues. besides, being a teenager is the best time for people to mix around, not to stay steady with one partner so fast ! we have a big futures, big chances, thereby its unnecessary to start being in a relationship when its not the time at all. if so, we can only do everything in the dark, not in the public, i hate being secretive alright.
i dont think its all my fault to not to accept the love. the closer we are, the more youll think you have the chance to start anything. no, we are impossible to start. ive tell you that i wanna be close friends but you still wouldnt accept it. how can you force someone to accept you when the feelings not 100% right and suitable ? love cant be forced ! and when that person who is soo obsessed with the other is known to the public, people will only think that the one who doesnt accept the love is WRONG. what is this ? its so unfair ! and when that person is hurt, its like all my fault ? no one wants this to occur ! the people who loves me doesnt mean i must love them and get together for the sake of their desire. its time to grow up, people ! being in love is totally aint a fairytale story at all. there are always ups and downs and also unacceptable ones.
please, i just wanna be close friends, cuz i do think that friendship can last forever, not love .
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